Tell Me What You See

It has taken almost 7 months to list this post, but here it is. For those who are interested in reading why I am posting, please read on. If not, leave a comment and I will read it :-)
I am not sure how much what I say here matters or if anyone will read it, but why I am posting is important for me to share.
I do not sleep around, I am not promiscuous and I would not ever really consider myself someone who is comfortable in her own skin. But here I am, posting intimate photos of myself. Why?

These photos were taken with my ex, we were together for 6 years. He is the only person I was ever with until our breakup, and these photos were for us. The reason I am sharing them is because there is a part of me that I have not/can not explore in real life, and these photos represent that to me.

The simplest and most crude way of explaining it is don't really want to sleep around or be a stripper. Yet I find myself jealous of those women. Not sure if that makes sense, but it's how I feel. I find myself wanting validation from men in ways that has nothing to do with my personality or what is inside my head. I want something primal. However, in real life I cannot voice this. Even putting this into words has me shaking more than the knowledge I am sharing a photo of my bare breasts.

I want to know what people think of me. How they see me. I want to talk to people, men or women, in a safe place where I can be myself without judgment. I want to feel naked and free.

I will be 100% honest and transparent and answer anything. The only thing I am hiding is my face since I have a career and do not want to be known for this.

My body is not perfect, I know that. But it is me and I want you to see that.

I hope to hear from you. Good or bad.

xx